time and confusion

confusion is part of life, especially in college. There's always something to do and never enough time to do it in. Sometimes we get so weighed down with the seemingly insurmountable tasks before us that it's easy to give up, it's easy to be angry with those around us because getting angry at the assignments seems fruitless. Little things set us off more easily than usual and sometimes it's too easy to lose ourselves in the fray. It's too easy at these times to retreat to our rooms and be bitter about everything which lays before us, but it's at these times when we truly need others. It's at these times when we need to the outside opinion of those that care about us. It's at these times when we truly need our friends. No one knows us better than the people we associate with on a daily basis, those we consider to be our close friends. I've found some of my friends often know me better than I know myself. In the times when all seems lost and it feels like rock bottom will be our best friend forever we need to turn to those friends and ask for help. Not only ask for help, but accept help not asked for. We can't do this alone, if we were meant to go through life alone there would be no point in making friends at all. We're given souls that need companionship, souls that crave interaction.

And it feels like we could last forever
And I'm not doing to do this alone
When memories fade
We've got each other
When time and confusion collide

True joy is found in our relationships with those around us.

waiting game

do feelings really come in waves, or are we our own worst enemies? Bottling up emotions and pretending they aren't there until one day they're forced to make themselves known. In most cases we create the emotional drama that accompanies the life of any young adult. Fear overrides common sense and we put everything that threatens us into a compartment in the back of our brain, hoping it will just wither away and die. If this were the case though, we would never learn, we would never be able to grow and progress. Even though it's hard we have to take those emotions, everything that we fear will overwhelm us and rip us beneath the current, and accept them as part of life, accept that we are presented with trials and difficult times for a reason.

every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end

vegas skies

It's interesting to remember and recall events of years gone by and think about the feelings going through your head at some particular moment. Humans are very fickle creatures with ever changing and conflicting feelings, but I think sometimes we have to go down roads of feelings that aren't good because life isn't always going to be happy. If we went through life never experiencing pain or sorrow we would never grow, we would never be able to look around and appreciate what good there is. We can't always be happy, but the question is, what are you going to do when you've hit rock bottom? When nothing else seems right, do you turn to the heartache and darkness only to let it overcome you? Or do you strive for something better? Do you reach out with every fiber of your being and defeat all that threatens to pull you down?

But when you find yourself lost in the darkness of despair, remember it's only in the black of night that you can see the stars. And those stars will lead you back home.

Don't let the darkness overwhelm you, don't let yourself be lost to the never ending pain of pessimism and unhappiness. We have to find our own stars and come home, it's never too late to come back home.