waiting game

do feelings really come in waves, or are we our own worst enemies? Bottling up emotions and pretending they aren't there until one day they're forced to make themselves known. In most cases we create the emotional drama that accompanies the life of any young adult. Fear overrides common sense and we put everything that threatens us into a compartment in the back of our brain, hoping it will just wither away and die. If this were the case though, we would never learn, we would never be able to grow and progress. Even though it's hard we have to take those emotions, everything that we fear will overwhelm us and rip us beneath the current, and accept them as part of life, accept that we are presented with trials and difficult times for a reason.

every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end

vegas skies

It's interesting to remember and recall events of years gone by and think about the feelings going through your head at some particular moment. Humans are very fickle creatures with ever changing and conflicting feelings, but I think sometimes we have to go down roads of feelings that aren't good because life isn't always going to be happy. If we went through life never experiencing pain or sorrow we would never grow, we would never be able to look around and appreciate what good there is. We can't always be happy, but the question is, what are you going to do when you've hit rock bottom? When nothing else seems right, do you turn to the heartache and darkness only to let it overcome you? Or do you strive for something better? Do you reach out with every fiber of your being and defeat all that threatens to pull you down?

But when you find yourself lost in the darkness of despair, remember it's only in the black of night that you can see the stars. And those stars will lead you back home.

Don't let the darkness overwhelm you, don't let yourself be lost to the never ending pain of pessimism and unhappiness. We have to find our own stars and come home, it's never too late to come back home.

new surrender

We will all come to the point in our life where we have to admit that we feel defeated, that something has conquered us. We must change, not because we want to, but because we desperately have to. We can not take life in its current suffocating state, even to admit such desperation shows that we are feeling deserted, wandering the barren desert, a shell of our former selves. It is only up from here, it is impossible to sink any lower into ourselves or our circumstances. But we can be salvaged, a deliverance. No vice can stand, no fix can take. The thorn in the side can be removed, but you have to be willing to admit and surrender. Surrender your habits, your lifestyle, your past, your present, and your future. This is your new surrender. The new surrender.
Stephen Christian

just like you imagined

Have you ever had a dream? A hope? A wish? Those dreams, wishes, and hopes are what ultimately shape us. By striving towards goals, towards betterment, we push ourselves and demand dedication. There are many times when it feels like going forward is impossible, like we aren't capable of reaching those things we want to, but that belief is a lie instilled in us by our own insecurities.

Only those who risk going too far can possibly find out how far they can go.
T.S. Eliot

We can only hope to get better by pushing ourselves past those self-imposed limits. Success isn't something that just happens, it requires hard work, desire, and usually failure. In order to truly appreciate success we have to experience failure, we have to be able to take that defeat and turn it into motivation. Use it to drive us and pull us through those times when our task seems insurmountable. If we never tried to get better, we would never find out that every one of us is destined for great things. The amount of potential within the soul of every person is incomprehensible. So go ahead. Dream, wish, hope. Imagine. Imagine a world where you can do whatever you set you mind to. Imagine a time when failure is a defining process rather than a discouraging one. Imagine a life where, no matter how many times you fall, you keep going until, ultimately, you've become better than you were the day before.

open your eyes

please understand something, there are always going to be doubts, there are always going to be fears. The hardest part of this life is overcoming those doubts and growing from them. Realizing that, even though it's hard, we can always make it through with a little help. Don't let a little apprehension ruin something you've worked for for so long. Trust in the Lord and He will direct your path.

There is suffering in life and there are defeats. No one can avoid them, but it's better to lose some of the battles in the struggle for your dreams than to be defeated without ever even knowing what you're fighting for.

pieces

There are some times in our lives when all we want to do is give up, when we feel like we've been torn into so many pieces that there is nothing left. We've all hit that point, we've all faced those things that bring us down to that lowest level. The thing is though, when we fall so hard, when we're brought to our knees, we're in the perfect position to pray. It's when we've fallen so far that we can see how much we need help, trying to rebuild yourself on your own is an insurmountable task. How lucky for us that there is a way prepared to help us become whole again. I have a firm belief and faith in my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, and I know that He can help us overcome anything that threatens to pull us down. He wants to help us and He wants us to be better.

I tried so hard
Thought I could do this on my own
I’ve lost so much along the way

Then I see your face
I know I’m finally yours
I find everything
I thought I lost before
You call my name
I come to you in pieces
So you can make me whole

I’ve come undone
But you make sense of who I am
Like puzzle pieces in your hand

When I see your face
I know I’m finally yours
I find everything
I thought I lost before
You call my name
I come to you in pieces
So you can make me whole

He wants to help us become whole once again.

we'll be okay

The night is long over, but we're all still wide awake.
Huddled together, just hoping this moment won't fade away.
The sunlight makes it's way up the field toward us again,
marking the end of this.

Because everyone's going their separate ways,
sometimes things just change,
but we'll never forget who we were that day
so don't be afraid, cause we'll be okay.

Carved out our love and we all broke our hearts together.
These are the times that define who we are forever.
It's hard to leave, you're just memories that I'm thinking of
that mark the end of this.

Because everyone's going their separate ways,
sometimes things just change,
but we'll never forget who we were that day
so don't be afraid, cause we'll be okay.

and sometimes it's hard when everything changes,
sometimes it feels like the world's unfolding.
This is when the impossible becomes possible.

It's hard to leave, you're just memories that I'm thinking of
that mark the end of this.

Because everyone's going their separate ways,
sometimes things just change,
but we'll never forget who we were that day
so don't be afraid, cause we'll be okay.

So unafraid we hadn't lived,
we'll be okay.
Without a care in the whole world,
we'll be okay.